So I've been meeting this girl for about two weeks now and all was going good. I wasn't putting her on a pedestal nor was I being needy. I knew she was pretty into me. And I was just being me what seemed to make her even more attractive to her.

Last wednesday we kissed for the first time while chillin and continued for a bit. It was amazing. But later some of her friends came to pick her up and we didn't know how to say goodbye. My dumbass was going for a hug and kiss on the cheeks as her friends where also there and I wasn't sure what would be going on. She went for the kiss though and it was pretty awkward.

Since then I've been constantly worrying if I fucked it up even though it probably didn't matter that much. Problem is through my worrying I completely turned beta again. I was like "shit how do I fix this fuck fuck fuck" even though there was no need for it.

To make matters worse when we met yesterday at a party I was totally awkward and left early because I didn't know how things were between us. Also she kinda new everybody while all my friends left earlier than me :/

Also, it might be because she was still partying and because she got a tournament today, but I get the feeling she takes much longer to reply to texts than before and she went from adding ☺️❣️💕 to almost every message to just ☺️💕 again...

Idk maybe I'm overthinking and that I actually am thinking so much about it bothers me but I just don't wanna lose this cause I've gotten so far. It was so close to getting official.

Even if she's less interested now it's probably not because I failed that kiss as she just laughed it off but me turning into a beta for no reason and she reacting to it. I just wanna know how I can save this and how I can turn off this beta mode again. Why did it come up again in the first place?