Ok. Met a girl on bumble that lives a mile away from me which is fucking ridiculous considering I'm rural. First texting tuesday. Great impression. Wednesday night late I bring wine over. I bang her with her toy. I get bored and go home to game and drink (off thursday) we are texting, then I call her bc I cant focus on gaming and drinking while texting her. She comes to my house this time and we fuck unprotected. She leaves my house after fooling around till 6am.

She regrets it. Texts me that when she gets home. Tommorow aka Yesterday (thursday) I hung out out of town w a girl I friendzoned for some hiking. I get back into town and she's hosting a yard sale for her (f) friend. They're busy but we kiss a few times and go back to my house to makeout and grab some stuff. They took adderall for the yard sale prep and stayed up all night. I stopped today at noonish while on the clock to check up and we kissed a little in front of one of her friends. I tried to make movie plans for tonight. But she hasn't slept in 36 plus hours. Didnt answer when I called her after work 7pm. Called me back an hour later when showering. Called her 5 mins later and she f u buttoned me.

She said please text me. Mentioned she was trying to get her friend to smoke her up so she could sleep. I want a relationship with her. She plays hard like I do, has a decent vehicle like I do, owns her own home like I do, and isnt a dummy and is kind of neurotic like I am. I mentioned I'd help her fall asleep but no response. Do I keep pressing trying to use charm to hangout or just try to enjoy my night?

Note: I fucked up, too. Shouldn't have fucked her w.o. protection. But I've never had an std and have infinite endurance... :( ... I dont hookup If I dont think a girl has strong potential for marriage. Also, her body is banging and she gave me a schpiel about "not being like that" as in having sex immediately. Its just it feels like this week the universe has been aligning with me to bring me unrelenting positivity in all aspects of my life and I dont want to fuck this up by seeming needy or desperate when i just want a partner and to feel her touch and hear her thoughts.

Edit: on mobile. Sorry for wall of text. I hope I can show her this in a month and laugh

31m 26f Both live alone in our houses