Where to start, well as a child around 11 I was molested. Fast Forward to High School. I always had a lot of friends but was always the chubby guy who got friend zoned. I was depressed throughout high school and later dropped out but not before starting a weed addiction my senior year. After dropping out and getting my GED I realized I needed to do better and started lifting like crazy and have made a huge impact on my body. During the year after I dropped out which was my senior year I started taking anti depressants and was prescribed Prozac. I had a very bad reaction to it and went into a full blown manic faze, the worse part was it was right after I had told my best girl friend that I liked to. I went obsessive on her and made a full out of myself. Im talking sending pictures of myself crying telling her how badly I needed her. I was not in a good place and was close to suicide. After getting off Prozac and starting Welbrutrin my life improved so much but a year after I still cringe and have no respect for myself. I need some help. I try everyday to better myself but I cant move passed what a full I had made myself. Through school I always would vent to my friends about how I didn't try hard because I was raped but after realizing that it happened and there is nothing I can do but move forward I realized I was in control of my life. Still I feel very weak and pathetic and could use good advice