for the past 2 months its been a mental battle everyday trying to stay positive and telling my self there is hope, while taking action

but i dont know how to truly love my self...

no friends, no gf, no best friend ever, i dont know how to make a conversation, i always chase others no one chases me, always me starting convos, no one tries to be my friend, but i feel like im boring people

and i base my self worth on how others react to me, when girls ignore me i feel unwanted unimportant and stupid

i hate being a r/niceguys and i seriously want to change.

i want to stop putting others on pedestal espesially girls but i dont know how

i compare my self to every living guy i see and wish i had his life and i always think he is better/smarter/cooler/greater and girls chase him eve i dont know him, but i dont know how to make my self believe im good enoigh to have a girl to like me and want me.

i live in iraq dating inst allowed too.. never touched a girl in my life.