Truth is, I don’t feel feminine at all.

When I was wee young my family used to dress me all feminine, in lovely lovely dresses and such and as soon as I hit school it changed. Long story short: bullied relentlessly, i turned around and started dressing very dark and gothic. To this day, that’s still relevant. Got a couple of tattoos all of which are hideable and i’m very pierced. I feel like due to my bad school experiences, parental pressure and various other childhood traumas its lead me down a dark path. Where i’ve had to be hyper masculine in general life aswell as even in my various relationships throughout the years.

How do you get out of the cycle of constantly being masculine? Maybe it’s easy to be feminine but breaking the cycle is hard.