So, I was listening to a CD of one of my favorite bands. They are a local group and I know every song by heart. But one song, it never really struck a chord with me until now.

The ending lyrics just summed up how I felt in this whole mess...

i believe you now i save you

it had to had to ...... somebody some day will want me!

That last line he screams. The way it sounds is just like the desperation I feel. The years of just ignoring me unless something was needed. The lack of communication. Everything. I had been screaming this inside for years. Somebody... Someday... Will want me.

Add this song to the long list of songs I can't listen to without feeling like my heart has been ripped out.

I uploaded it to YouTube if anyone else cares to experience it.

https://youtu.be/Cll-OKOUFNo