Hello my friends.

Not sure if I should be posting this question here.

Not sure if I should be on TRP.

Allow me to explain.

I'm 24. Not a virgin, but have to claim the title of incel. Girls have never been an issue for me before these last couple of years. My "bluepill" mentality got me laid with decent looking girls out of highschool. I wasn't the most popular but well received by most. Girls liked me.

Around age 21 I went into pothead/conspiracy theorist/recluse mode. Dropped college, hung around my lifelong friends and never really got out of that circle. Started rapping and took it serious, got to the point i didn't suck at it, wanted to change the world. That didnt last. Still want to change the world, still like to rap. Idk what happened. Got mad acne around this time from improper bulks. Got some sort of ED issue coupled with PE like a mofo. Crippled me in way. Still face this today.

Now I'm 24(about a 1.5 years after discovering trp) and building a life that allows me to make decent money, and master my craft(music). I lift, always have. Not jacked but on that path. Eat right. I'm healthy, my skin is getting more and more clear. I'm 20 pounds heavier around 12% bf.

So life is turning around. I'm making an actual effort.

Anyway. Getting laid is fuckin difficult. When I see girls I find attractive i go into TRP processing mode. The whole process of meeting new girls, finding ones I have chemistry with, hanging out, fucking, enjoying, has all become some mechanized process I ASSUME I dont understand. I know how to do this shit, it's instinctual. I've done it before and I'll do it again. But right now, after however the fuck long I've been monking it, it seems my next lay is a million miles away.

I know life isn't all about sex. I do enjoy life. But it's getting bland without women in it. I say women, not only pussy. I like having feminine energy gravitated toward me. I'm in a rut repelling it. Am I just being a whiny little bitch? Sure feels like it. I dont know where else to bring this issue.

The beginning stage of TRP has brought me to a place that I'm face to face with a life of challenging myself constantly. It's exciting. The place I'm currently at is also void of attractive women. I think the pill is lodged.

I don't approach attractive women enough. Hardly ever really. The opportunities diminished recently, but even if they increased, I'm still in a place that I'm too puss to approach.

This post feels like some weird ass memoir but, it kind if sums up my current situation.

This quote "You had best unfuck yourself or I will unscrew your head and shit down your neck! " jumps into my mind.

If you've got insight, throw it my way. Criticisms, even better. Not sure what I expect getting from a post on a forum.