second oneitis - this one is worse since it felt like she "understood" me.. mostly lies.. correction all fucking lies.

contacted her after 3 months -- following warlocks guide, fell for beta bait, called her but didnt take her back, then went insane on her over text next day..

kinda used it to emotionally kill myself for a date, went well but didnt get laid.. decent make out.

ran into her being a hoe pickuping guys in the city on my drive back (what are the fucking odds?)

then was feeling all shitty the next day and ran into her again while getting lunch with a friend. She avoided me but I recognized her as she walked past with a friend.

This girl is eternal ingenue: https://heartiste.wordpress.com/2008/09/17/how-to-handle-femmes-fatales-part-2a/

She definitely knows game and literally broke down 3 months of wall building and confidence in a phone call lasting literally under half an hour.. appealing to my kindness for her shitty life situation .. i caved and reached out to a friend for advice and as I was about to send it over to her realized I was being played again and stopped.

Like a huge beta sent a long soppy "I'm sorry" txt and she replied "Thank you"

Fortunately, I kinda regained my senses after, closed / archived all that shit and just went out with friends and partied at a club. Had a great time and now every time I think of her I just reach out to a friend or something or do work.

Returned to regular lifting

Past friends / acquaintances have been like "is that you?".. not sure if its good or bad but w/e I'm just like yes -- I'm awesome.

How can I completely kill the weakness in me? I don't mind being a little beta to a women worthy of it, its fun to be in a relationship and go after something deeper.

I need to get better faster so I think it would be helpful to hang / know trp men in SF, CA or AA, MI area; NYC + LA less so, who are also going through this journey.

aka: any bros in the area wanna go clubbing / any other activity so i can GFTOW.

Already doing latin dance and photography -- those are going slowly but I'm ok with that since they are my passions / hobbies. I need to get plates again so I dont ever think about her..