So a while back I smoked some weed and I started to get into a paranoiac trip. During the high I thought I was just smoked some shit in a bad mood and it wasn't necessarily true. Then I smoked a few more times, and I kept getting the same thoughts.
I have a feeling that this is a red pill for me and I accept it and like it. It's made me realize things that I normally would've rather not wanted to know, but now I've realized my flaws and insecurities that I've had deep down and never had the balls to recognize. Now the question I have is do I use these thoughts to fuel and propel me to improve myself that much faster/harder, or do I stop trying to depress myself, and improve myself without this above my head?