I have been improving on myself for a while now. I have been working out, reading books, doing things that I'm passionate about, meditating, seeing things as what they truly are, not taking any shit... These I have no problem with but my main problem is controlling my emotions. Even if I do all of the thing that I have told you and I can see the change, which does make me feel better, I can not for the life of my get a grasp on my emotions.

An easy example would be a social situation. While talking to someone, as we are talking, I can see how the person across me feels and how I made them feel that way. However, even though I know what I'm doing wrong at that moment, I can't change that mistake for some reason. I'd like to think it's because I can't control my emotions. Because what I believe really is happening there is I think that I fucked up already and I should just go with this and I didn't have it from the start anyways.

Or another example would be with work. I sometimes have a hard time starting things that I don't like. Which is a really bad trait that I need to fix. But I know it's because I can't control my emotions. I can't just say "You do want to finish this and get it out of the way. It's really easy to deal with". And like I said I can realize why I'm doing it at that very second but I can't just stop and change it.

I have been reading a lot of posts about it here. And I do want to improve on this. I want to be able tell that person inside me to shut up and just do as I say. Cause I do know the right answer but where the hell is my execution? I was curious if any of you guys could guide me on what I could be doing. I'm not looking for quick solutions but I am looking for someone who can point me towards the right direction at least. So guys, how can I conquer my emotions?