I feel like I am not bringing anything to the table.
I am a martial arts student, and i spend most of the week training, as i feel this will benefit me in the journey of the marine corp.

However, and yes i realize i am a student, when the lack of skill and experience shows, i feel like i’m letting everyone down. The USMC, myself, my family, and the dreams i so desperately want to achieve.

Why would they let me in, when i can’t do whatever it is that I’m trying to do. Makes me fee like a liability to every program I’m trying to join, and a let down to everyone counting on me.

Not sure what to do other than to keep going, but it’s weighing on me.

I just jerked off after a few months of avoiding that. Now I’m afraid that I won’t get hard during sex. See what I mean?