I am naturally possessive and get jealous easily. I buy into the sucker shit. Something compels me to turn a hoe into someone I can confide my thoughts/feelings in and be comfortable around despite knowing better and having first hand experiences that have taught me better (which have led me here). Likely a result of growing up with a mentally unstable mother but that's not important and rather than dwelling on what created the flaws in me I like to spend time working on fixing them.

I've never been the kind of person to try to fuck any girl. I would never cheat and continued dating women who I knew were a bad idea and always end up feeling like shit So now I'm here trying to learn.

Some thoughts on why I may be like this..

-Not enough relationships (non-romantic/not sexual)

-Introverted so when I'm comfortable around someone I find it easier than finding someone new.

-Shy when it comes to meeting new people so I don't want to lose the opportunity when I have it because I feel like my options are limited (which isn't true as I'm intelligent and my looks are above average).

I know I probably sound like a bitch to some of you who have practiced this for a long time but I've been fucked time and time again and I'm ready for any advice that can help me change the thought patterns that keep me from living this lifestyle.