Not sure if I’m posting this for honest feedback or just a general catharsis for my mind, I think both.

I stumbled upon the redpill maybe two three weeks ago. Right now I think it’s stuck in my throat but I have read through the sidebar several times. I had my second jiu-jitsu class last night, have taken to lifting 4-5 times a week, and cleaned up my diet.

Two days ago a man whom I greatly looked up to passed away unexpectedly. He gave me my first job, taught me the value of hard work, and helped me get through college. Definitely a father figure.

My lift this morning sucked. Class last night sucked. My mind is elsewhere. I can’t seem to focus.

How do I get back to the frame I had? Things were going great now my motivation is gone. Maybe I’m just being a pussy.

Thoughts?