It’s summer, I have much more free time and I’m going to use the next 3 months to evolve more than I ever have. My life is pretty shitty, but I’ve pulled myself out of that type of situation before. I’m 17. They didn’t let me graduate on time this year because I had bad attendance this year, even though I still passed my classes 🤦🏼‍♂️. Yeah, I fucked up. It is what it is, doesn’t change my life plans. I just gotta retake one class at the community college I was already planning on attending next year. I found that the high school social environment may have altered my growth as a person. I gave way too many fucks about what people thought of me. In all 4 years, I didn’t find a single human being I identified with as a person. I was always considered alpha and all that, but for whatever reason, my self-esteem was damn near non-existent because I felt so singled out. I felt like I had to act and ‘be’ a certain way. All my teachers thought I was very smart. But if some unaware fuck who doesn’t even know me though I was stupid, I would take it to heart. It’s really interesting. I wanna address all these issues this summer. I also wanna work my ass off this summer. I’m a musician and I’m going to use every free moment doing something to work towards my goals. I want to establish a productive routine. I don’t wanna spend my free time laying around playing video games or getting high. I’m also working 15-20 hours/week right now. I’m looking to get a second job to get that number up to 30 hours/week.

Basically what I’m asking of, is for someone to help me organize my goals for this summer in a way that I can achieve them as much as possible. I need to establish a daily routine. I have a lot I need to accomplish this summer. I also have a lot of emotional growth to do, I don’t even have time to think about women right now because I need to work on myself. You have no reason to give a fuck about any of this, but I have no true support system, or adults that can give me optimal advice. So I’m turning to my fellow superior human beings who got their shit together when they needed to.