After thinking I had digested the red pill I got into a relationship a little over 1.5 years ago and slowly slid back into beta mode, inevitably disgusting my LTR to the point where she dumped me. I’ve also had a history of moderate addiction problems and I went back into AA right after being dumped, having left the program for 2 years or so. According to AA self centeredness is at the root of our problems. This leads to a lot of blue pilled attitudes towards women from a lot of the men in the program, including my sponsor. I’m just wondering, are there any of you out there in recovery? How do you reconcile the reality of an amoral sexual marketplace with the moralizing of every aspect of life demanded by AA or NA?