Its been almost a year since I found RP. That also means its been a little over a year since I was dumped by my oneitis.

After finding RP I found that I agreed very firmly and was unconsciously aware of many of the tenants and principles the forum holds. It was like what I was reading was first hand confirmation of everything I ever suspected.

Anyways, its been a year, and I'm still not where I want to be. Big surprise I know, still, I feel like I should be feeling better right now.

Today I still go through waves of heartbreak over my ex. Little insignificant things will trigger it. When you're with someone for four years you pretty much share everything together atleast once. My mind will wander when these things come up, and glorify the old relationship aka "rose tinted glasses". Im aware of this happening but I still cannot stop and wonder how flawed my perception really is, or if it is not.

Ive taken nearly everything out of my life that I can to stop myself from being reminded of her but still I have thought about her at least once everyday since breaking up.

I would never take her back, I couldn't, but a piece of me really wants her to come so I can shoot it down, pretty fucking stupid I know.

Ive done GFTOW, some were fun, some felt like i was masturbating with another human body. Theres just no love like the love I was used to. I would like another relationship but I just would not be able to give myself to it at all.

How did you guys get over your oneitis? Are you sure you're over it you fucking liar or do you think about her almost everyday and compare every new girl you meet to the old her you were dating. Don't lie it doesn't serve anyone here.