Not a question. I couldn't stop but to share it.

I find the italic statement so amazing that I believe that it worths to fail 1000 times to get that. I think it might even worth 10,000 of fails to get that. What the fuck else am I gonna enjoy in this life

V here. I never thought I can actually have sex, make love, play, lead, temporarily own, dominate, LEAD a girl that I'm very attracted to. I never thought I'd deserve that or just have that. It felt very distance. I was bitter at guys who have girls. I was bitter at girls for being so hot and kindof unreachable. It felt like Mars. It still does obviously but LESS so. For the past 3 hours I've been thinking on this. I feel really happy that I can be loved. I'm happy that a girl I'm very attracted to can be really attracted to me too and she can love me (well, I know), desire me, be happy that I'm leading her and that I'm fucking her like there is no tomorrow. A girl I'm very attracted to can just let go completely with me, leave herself vulnerable completely to me, trust me, sleep on my chest when my arms are around her, or suck on my dick when I'm working. We can just stare at each other until it becomes so tense not to do anything. I can treat her like a brat and she would love it. I be her rock, protector, strong figure or whatever and she becomes my cheerful, pleasing, warm, bratty loving thing. I can't wait to play with her ass and just play with her. It is only my turn though, I shall not forget.

I believe that it worths to fail 1000 times to get that. So that's what I am going to do. I'm gonna go out and I am gonna talk to 1000 girls. If I talk to 10 girls a day, it will take 3 months for me to have a girl that I can lead, dominate, play with, enjoy and savor and fuck, at worst possibility probably. 3 months is nothing.

Meanwhile, I might be an offender, at worst. But it would worth it. Just kidding, although I don't know. I don't know its ramifications. Wait what the fuck am I talking about now. I gotta go to sleep now. Bye. Wait I am not that of an idiot dude, no fucking way, I am smart and I can probably read her way before such a thing happens, unless she is crazy. Then well shit happens.