Noone is dying. My grandparents live with my parents. My grandad is an irritating cuunt who is a control freak. He spoiled my dad's life by controlling him and not letting him do what he wanted. My grandmom is irritating af who loves her daughters kids much more than me. My dad is an irritating prick who used to abuse me and had given me no freedom in life. Now suddenly he has sent me to a foreign country to study. He calls me about 25 times a day and if I don't answer he messages people I know, including ones from my class on Facebook. He never let me form any friendships in my life. I literally have zero friends. My mom is a religious freak whom you can't reason with. She keeps giving me examples of my cousins who are working at silicon valley. My maternal grandparents are also religious freaks who are living in the 70s or something. They don't even let me use phones or my laptop if I go to them and say if I use them I will become a failure they too keep giving me examples about my cousins working on silicon valley. I loathe myself and have no self confidence

I can't walk away as they fund my education. When I say I have no confidence in myself, I am not lying. I have no siblings to help me out. When I suggest therapy, they talk about sending me to a yoga and meditation center. I hate my uni too and have zero motivation in life for anything.

If I go back home, my grandad barges into my room at 5 am to wake me up. God forbid I shout and he would cut funding my education. They have made me hate myself. I haven't even been able to sustain a relationship in which my dad told me that the girl was too good for me. I can just hope they die soon and I get the inheritance