TLDR; I'm looking for some solace, and possible solutions and suggestions on how to deal with the isolation and emptiness that comes with swallowing the pill and pushing yourself forward.

I know I'm not alone when I say this, but knowing the truth about the true nature of women and how us men were programmed and conditioned in this Western society REALLY bums me out, to the point where I don't even want to bother with any of it anymore.

I've become more comfortable being alone and enjoying my time with my hobbies. I'm in good shape and have decent looks. I've had success with women. I've had success in my career and financial goals. I have great friends (though they are geographically far away from me right now) Why the fuck do I feel so empty and depressed about my life and the society I live in?

Honestly, it feels extremely isolating when you have the TRP mindset (or are aware of these things) and a lot of your guy friends are total beta cringe-factories (yet they have mushy girlfriends and you don't. ha!), or your girl friends are just irritating to be around because they complain about why guys don't want them anymore as they approach/breeze past the wall. Fuck that noise.

My most recent hookup unexpectedly drove me into a psychological mess because I couldn't understand (and accept) what went wrong after we hooked up. I played my cards wrong. I got too excited (she was someone whose company I actually enjoyed, which hasn't happened in a while) and ended up fading into her crowd of orbiters. She's also just about to hop on the CC. Great. I know the psychological counter to this is abundance mentality, but it still sucks to let that opportunity slip through.

That thought just led me into realizing that this vicious cycle we're in will never end. It's always going to be a near 90 degree uphill battle. Will we ever find happiness where we could just let our guards down a little bit, or do we have to always be armed and ready? A lot of TRP reading has already answered this: NO. So what do we do?