Hi,

To start off I'm 20 years old, and in the process of trying to figure stuff out(regarding relationships etc.), part of which has been reading RP stuff. But the thing is, to be honest, I'm depressed as hell, and I figure I might get some clarity from some opinions here.

My situation might be somewhat similar to another's post awhile back, if I remember it right, but anyway for as long as I can remember I've really felt the 'need'(for lack of a better term) to be with a woman who's 'in charge' in the relationship, both privately and not, and it's stayed with me for a long time now, and won't seem to go away, no matter where I go in life.

Now, I've pretty much accepted that this is a plain and simple fantasy. Women aren't into sub men, and it's just awkward and weird, and she loses interest, so no need to convince me of that. But I really don't know where to go from here. I mean, it's like a milder version of if I were gay but could never be with a guy. It's pretty damn unpleasant.

Anyway I have a couple quick questions for you guys on how I might be able to go about this:

1 - Am I right in my belief that it's just a fantasy and I should move on?(I gather that's what the average RPer would tell me; just getting specific opinions

2 - Assuming #1, What's the best way to leave it behind and get into just regular relationships?

I'll be honest here, the notion of never being with woman I can be 'passive' with(if you're wondering, I'm referring to the 'BDSM' realm, but not dominatrices, they're just businesses, and it's silly anyway), is incredibly depressing, but I'm ready to move on from it, I just a need a gauge on how.

Appreciate the input guys!