So after a good year and a half of monk mode (weight-loss + rhinoplasty), i've transformed from a nerdy SC-playing neck-beard to a decently looking human (for reference: before http://i.imgur.com/1oHKnXx.jpg --> after http://i.imgur.com/2WFwLgS.jpg).

I'm happy about my transformation, but the mental/psychological element still lingers. Growing up my entire life looking like the before pic did not help; I looked like that until the end of Freshman year college, so you can imagine I did not get much appeal from anyone. I've got a lot to learn/catch up on.

Start this semester, I look like a stud coming into Sophomore year. I'm in the best physical condition of my life, I've had perspective changes in all aspects, I'm set for professional success. With my head held high, I join a fraternity, get involved with multiple clubs and have grown my social circle to the proper degrees it should be. I cut off most of the depressed video game betas from freshman year, and I'm pretty much a totally new guy. I apply the classic TRP principle of the interesting emotionally-aloof renegade, and girls start becoming painfully obvious with their interest.

It's gotten to a point though where it has superimposed itself on my reputation. I am known as the witty, powerful mysterious guy that no one knows anything about; everyone, from my fraternity to my social clubs that I run think I'm a heavy-handed player. People think I pull in pussy by the load, and the truth is that it's only recent where I've been seen as a commodity and I don't know how to handle it.

I only have one sexual experience: Smashing a random club girl in Tijuana, beside that? No kisses, no relationships, no natural escalated sex, etc, etc.

This puts me at a crossroads, all the girls that are interested in me are heavily so b/c they have this misconception that I'm just hard-to-get when the reality is that I haven't smashed any of them because I don't know how to.

So that brings me to the title, there's this girl that has been orbiting hard and I'm positive she's been desperately wanting to be the first person in this social circle I've created to successfully get me to sleep with her. It be a huge bragging point for her, and I'll give it to her, she is hot. There's a party tomorrow thrown by a mutual acquaintance, and I'm certain she's going to use this as her opportunity to get me to smash her. Pressure is up right now, because if I go in and make out like an elementary school child, and smash like I have an extra chromosome….I'm done.

My entire reputation would crumble into pieces, this girl has influence in the same social circle i'm involved in and all the girls in that social circle LOVE talking. That would then transfer onto the males, and then so on where I'd have a lot difficulty maintaining what I maintain now. But then on the other hand, if not now then when? you know, I'm still young, i'm not even 20 but still it's a difficult situation.

What should I do? I don't care much for the girl, but my reputation/current social circle? it be nice to have it maintained.