I found TRP about 3 months ago. I've been in monk mode for 2 months and I'm starting to see the benefits. I planned when I entered monk mode to stay in it until at least march next year.

Problem is I'm starting to loose focus. I don't feel fully comfortable in my own skin yet, but clearly my attitude changed and at least some women have noticed. 2 women at work have started flirting. I used to suck at flirting, but now that I think about it as just a game I feel decent. I even had an unknown woman start a conversation with me yesterday, which hadn't happened for years.

A part of me wants to jump out of monk mode and start trying my luck at "game". At The same time I feel like I would be doing a wrong thing if I get out of monk mode before my intended goals, both in time as in psychical and mental goals just to see if I can fuck one of these women.

I don't know. I feel like I'm trying to hamstering.