Stats: Deadlift 480 Squat 440 Ohp 180 Bench 250 Height 6 feet Weight 220lb 15% body fat

I’ve been reading mrp for just over a year and have read most of the sidebar etc This is a story of how I moved from consciously incompetent to unconsciously competent . A Christmas party 1 year ago - I had just started to apply MRP to my life. I had been lifting for a year already but I was working on passing shit tests, stop being a drunk captain and deferring all responsibility to wife. . Before mrp I wouldn’t have even thought about going to her works Christmas party but i realised I had become boring and it was a chance for me to practice social skills etc . We sat at the table and I was fun and flirty with my wife and our table had lots of fun. Eventually the dancing started and I followed my wife round like a lost puppy. . If she started talking to hot co-workers I would go and introduce myself. I was somehow convincing myself that I wasn’t mate guarding I was being alpha. Throughout the whole party I was constantly in my own head, “what should I do here”, “how do I show my wife I’ve changed”, “what would an alpha do now”, “would an alpha dance”, “should I worry about what I like If i can’t dance”. I was flicking through this subreddit on toilet breaks trying to gleam answers. . She started to talking to this hot co worker basically flirting in front of me. We awkwardly spent the remainder of the evening together. We went back to our hotel room and had sex. I knew I was a beta and I knew I was not being a leader. One year later I had a tried to improve myself through out the year, stop seeking the approval of my wife and makes a decision. This year I went to the party I started chatting to random people, I had become pretty good over the last year at striking up conversations with people I didn’t know and I find it really enjoyable. The difference this year is that I had started to in-bed the MRP theory. My wife made a few shit tests and I instantly AA without thinking about it. I was out of my own head and having fun . The main difference this year. Toward the end of the night my wife starts chatting to a guy but looking over me, almost challenging me. I smirked and completely ignored it, i DNAF. I started chatting to a girl next to me, she was heavily flirting me and we had a great conversation. I completely forgot what my wife was doing and focused on myself and having fun with the girl I was chatting to. My wife came over and tried to interpose herself between me and this other girl. . Later that night we had incredible sex. . In other words, at the start of your journey things will feel awkward, you will fail and probably embarrass yourself. That’s normal. Keep going and a year from now, you won’t be acting you will be yourself