I want to listen to the truth about myself .1 I have an interracial cuck fantasy. What does that make me? Is it normal?

2 I have spent the past 5 months creating fake accounts on dating sites and jerking off to what they say

3 I haven't approached any girl in 1 year or so

4 I haven't gotten laid in 2 years

5 I somehow don't think about fucking but masturbating . I also take meds for borderline personality disorder

6 I have left all my friends and they have gotten jobs all over the world. I have moved in with my parents after the degree

Pleaee tell me the cold hard truth and dont refrain from name calling me. I need to get up and get better.