Just told my wife of my unbelief. It isn't going well.

It was over messenger because we don't communicate well about big things without crying. She needs me to come home so she can go to the temple and get a blessing from her dad. I told her I'd been scared to tell her my feelings because I don't want to lose her or our kids. She didn't say that's not going to happen. I know people say it gets better, but right now my whole world is crashing around me.