Hey guys, I wanted to seek some advice. I have been married for a few years now and our marriage was almost a total dead bedroom. I was getting increasingly beta in the marriage( the typical beta backslide) untill I found the red pill, MMSL, Girlschase etc. I started reading the sidebar, STFU, teasing, lifting like crazy and dressing better. The most interesting observation I had was how this relationship even started. I picked up my wife from the street and we hung out that day and I was leading her and having fun and she even dropped the " we are not having sex shit test" which I probably failed and then she invited me back to her apartment where I got to third base but I couldn't bang. She later told me she was recently sexually assaulted( big red flag I know:/) and we would hook up for a few days but I couldn't close to sex untill she said she would only have sex in a relationship. Fast forward a few more days I stupidly commit to a relationship with her. Everything was fine but obviously over time the sex declined and after the honeymoon period and even during she gave a lot of duty sex and seemed generally uncomfortable. I assumed it was from her previous assault but it was probably from me being beta. It wasn't all bad I mean I fucked her up the ass a couple times. My thoughts are now Is it even worth it with my wife anymore? Even with the MAP will she ever be able to truly let go and submit and feel lust for me. Rollo Tomassi had this golden post https://therationalmale.com/2011/09/23/wait-for-it/ About how your never the priority of a women who makes you wait for it. So Will I ever be able to pull her true lust out or did I irreversibly fuck up at the initiation of this relationship?