What's up y'all.

Been here for well over a year. Read the sidebar and big posts forwards and backwards. Obsessed with getting better at everything that's important to me.

So here's the deal.

I lift, I'm tall (6'5), I dress well, I do BJJ. Working on my degree, and working on my web developing side hustle that recently became profitable.

My days are mostly filled now. I get up earlier than ever (5AM) and just get after it. Although day to day I'm focused, I'm starting to think I would like to add women into the mix because I'm pretty inexperienced.

I'm just going to be like completely honest about this because I want to get better. I've kissed one girl in my life which was a few months ago, and am a virgin still. It took alot for me to even do that because I'm lowkey a pussy. I only escalated that far with her because she was like the hottest girl I'd ever seen at that point.

I have pretty good social skills, and make friends with guys and girls easily, but the only girls that openly throw themselves at me are the fatties and really ugly ones that I would be embarrassed to be seen with.

I'm always worried about ruining "friendships" with girls in my social circle or girls that I meet through BJJ, or through school. I also have this weird like fear of rejection cuz I have a bigass nose and thought that like "there's noooo way any non-ugly girl would want you, etc.".

What do you guys make of all this?