Male, 17, 5'11, 145 lbs., Asian. I've been using TRP since last September when school began. I've been making good progress. Girls act differently around me than before, I cold pickup for enjoyment, etc. However lately I've been acting and feeling differently. Not "bad" per se, but different. I've been much more irritable for one. Now I don't throw temper tantrums or anything, but people around me just started to piss me off. I've begun to just hate people I've never talked to or seen before because they look like douchebags.

I've also been acting a lot more ballsy lately, and in a stupid way. Earlier this week in one of my classes, this kid was throwing a pen around at his friends. Just to my luck, the kid threw the pen and "accidentally" hit me in the face. I gave him a piece of my mind and I'm afraid that if the other kid hadn't backed down, a fight would have broken out. I'm a senior this year, and I don't intend on getting in any serious trouble.

Finally, I'm acting much more arrogant and I'm assuming it's really starting to show when I talk. One of my friends went off on me saying I didn't really listen to what other people were saying and I just said what I wanted. I told him to find someone else to vent to and walked away (I have no problem being on my own).

I know I'm definitely way more alpha than before, but maybe I'm overdoing it now? Especially for my size at the moment? Maybe I could attribute it to restarting lifting after hospitalization and smoking cigarettes every once in a while?

Redirection and constructive criticism is much appreciated (aside from telling me how bad smoking is. I'm in the top 5% of my class. I know the risks and smoke a couple times a month. Usually when trying to pickup chicks who smoke).