I am wasting my life away. I have some history of depression, cloud of which covers me once a while. And currently i think it's right above my head. I worry too much about what people will think or say about me.

I'll give you couple of examples: I was fired last week from work and i decided to rest for a month or two, because the job was very physical and stresfull and ruined my health a lot. Due to that, i became very active on social media and due to less stress i became more friendly with people. So i have couple of toxic "friends", which i always think, what will they be thinking about me. They probably think that now i am unemployed, i am lost in life and will make fun of me because of this.

I wanna start a vine channel of mine, but am shy to do that. Because people will start talking about me and see me as a desperate guy.

I overthink before i record my vines and post them to social media, i go over them million times, before i make sure they are "perfect".

How can i get over this?