So I'm in college and I approached this girl who has a boyfriend I didn't know until later on, I invited her to do some stuff she said she was busy with work but then 2 days ago she asked to study together said sure. We studied talked for about 5 hrs, missed some chances for kino bc everyone knows hindsight is 20/20, now on our walk back to the dorm she says "you know what Pokeylaw when I tell guys I have a boyfriend they stop talking to me but your a good friend" I didn't say anything but just looked her with a smirk silence for just a few secs my cousin then comes up behind me and just fucks up the mood I guess. All three then go back I then call her the next day and say "I liked hanging out yesterday and what not but I'm looking for friends I wanted something more thanks though" she says ok I understand then I hung up.
I think I fucked up calling her, my friend D and my cousin wanted me to stay friends with her to basically wait to slide in when she breaks up with her bf. I'm like thats fucking bullshit and almost got into a fist fight with them bc I legitimately thought they were belittling me thinking I gotta fucking wait my turn for a damn hole in between some girls legs. While they get to hoe around all they want, Like I'm fucking sorry I don't think it's right to want to fuck my friends, in my eyes you got friends then you have romantic partners I don't want start bridging those into bc in mind that shit gets murky in my head. Bc if I'm just waiting in the damn shadows waiting for my turn to fuck 1 girl I'm no better than those thirsty betas who get friendzone, while just waiting to fuck bc he "needs" to build a connection first.
1 more thing why the fuck do people hoe around then want to judge you for trying to do the same I know action speaks louder than words but goddamn fucking damn, I've only went after 4 girls since being here thats in a 6 month spam (I know low af didn't have a lot of confidence until I met my friend A and he helped me with a lot of shit) and for some goddamn reason everyone thinks I'm some thirsty fucking horn dog just constantly trying to fuck everything. When people get angry they show there true colors and how they really think of you.