And becoming more stoic.

I find that I’ve always been very yuppity. When I talk about something I’m passionate about I get overly excited. Other times I can become apathetic, but for the most part I have extremely high testosterone, so I have a lot of energy.

I’ve seen my therapist few times and asked him to diagnose me, but he said I just give off really strong emotions. He said that I’m so strong and women probably get scared away with my personality.

I find that lifting heavy just jacks me up more. For me to calm down I need to be in the gym for 4 hours and just destroy it, otherwise too much energy.

I am looking for something to keep me busy and focusing more on my career so I can channel this energy here, but how do you learn to slow it down and become less reactive/emotional? How do I still tap into it, but not allow myself to be taken over by it?

PS - I do meditate but I could be fucking it up. If you were going to recommend it, how do you meditate/suggest going about it?