I've been slowly reading more into this, and I completely understand and accept that the mainstream concept of love which we are taught, does not exist. Fine.

But what about intimacy and connection, and the associated feelings? Not just the thought of "being with her will make me happy", but the genuine FEELING of connection itself?

I know I sound like a beta bitch, but I'm trying to understand in trp what's different about intimacy and love?

What kind of connection is actually real and possible, versus one that depends on her options (in terms of hyper gamy)?

What I want is intimacy.. Connection. The feeling of connection, and genuine care.

Is this even possible to achieve? Or is it just something that happens for few moment in a relationship, while you're in constant battle with hypergamy?

I feel embarrassed asking this, but this is the hardest part for me. If the feelings/connection I crave, can not be possible, then.. What kind of intimacy can I actually get? [For context, let's say in LTR]