So I went on date with this beautiful girl, the kind of girl that are on some energy, spiritual lifestyle, mother nature shit(for lack better word),with locks, giant tits, small ass. We been talking for a couple weeks but still kinda waiting for her to stop talking to me, BC for some I put her on a pedestal and felt unworthy of her, but I never demonstrate that to her ,I was able to control my urges of doing some cheesy, beta, nice guy, type of things like appearing needy to her.

The first date was horrible from the beginning, I asked her out kinda jokingly and awkwardly after she told she didn't nothing to do the next day, I texted "we should do something" but the beta in me added just kidding in the second text, but I'm glad she responded yes before the second text arrived, when she asked me I text her "just kidding" I told her it was the auto correct fault. On the FIRST DATE I was nervous as hell, the words would come out of my mouth properly ,didn't know what to talk, ...just bad

We end up not talking for almost a week after, in that I did some self-reflection of everthing that I had done wrong, and realised I wasn't present In the moment, I was too worried about what I'm going to say next instead of truly hearing was she was saying, So I Made The Decision of not letting my mind play tricks on me with the constant past frustrations or future wonderings.

The second date went a lot smoother I prepared a couple questions to ask her if ran out of things to talk about, I was more focused in the moment, and kept eye contact every time she was talking or I when I was talking that help truly listen and understand, and she even end up saying that I was undressing her with my eyes ,we end up kissing ,her eyes were kinda shinning after, I ended up biting her on the neck, making her shake, so I kept kissing her and biting her from time to time, after a while she told to her somewhere So ended up the night at my place