TL;DR: I changed a lot, and I feel a lot of potential in myself, but I feel that potential is being lost because of me doing shit that I 'must do' and not necessarily want to do. I want to change something but I don't know where to start.

I've made a long way through to change my life and myself. I can say I kinda discovered most of the red pill thinking by myself, not knowing that the community like that exists. It applies to all the different stuff. I had no success in anything, women, my frame, self-confidence, basically everything. But even though I feel much stronger person now, I feel like I'm not at the place I want to be, doing what I want to do. I guess it's very common to person my age (20), that I feel like that, but it doesn't mean for me, that it should be like that. Situation looks like that - my family is not the best family, very toxic shit going on, I won't go with details, but basically my biggest 'goal' as to say now, is to get the fuck out of the home I live in. The problem is that, of course, I don't have money, I can't count on my family at any degree, so I'm in place where I'm on university, don't want to learn all the shit taught here (the school system just doesn't work for me, I never could learn that way), but I'm scared to leave the uni because I'm afraid that it will just become worse that way, since I don't really see much alternatives, and working on grocery store as a cashier isn't the thing I would necessarily wanted to do. Meanwhile I have problem with studying, not because it's too hard to me, I just totally lack motivation different than 'I don't want to be kicked of'.

What would you advice me to do? I feel like I made a big journey of becoming something that I could at least somewhat name 'real man', and you know, it's good in many ways, but because I feel stronger person now at the same time I feel like my potential is being lost somewhere, but I don't know how to change that.