I'm 23 and my ex is the same age , before I swallowed the RP , I let this woman take my manhood. I was beta , showed to much emotion and fucked the control up . I have a 2yr old girl with her , she left me for some other guy . Since the breakup which has been almost a year now , I have fucked 30+ girls . I am a goodlooking guy , many girls want me , I work hard go to the gym . The one thing that still fucks this transformation is how much of a beta I was with her and was after we broke up . I actually had a talk yesterday because she disrespected me in front of my daughter and I gamed her up on how she needs to respect me as a man and I'll show her respect after she earned mine and she responded good . Begging me to tell her how to respect me in the way I want . The dilemma is , this is a girl I fell in love with , she was a hoe . I should have treated her as a hoe , I was young and beta. So how can I gain back control , eliminate my love for her , show her that I am alpha bitch . You follow my rules even though you have a bf , I'm still the leader of my family and you jump when I say you jump kinda TRP ish. It's really a strange situation knowing how beta you were and trying to transform into TRP , while you have a constant reminder of who you used to be . I want her to look at me in a new light and get wet knowing I'm this new man. I feel as though this is a ego thing , I feel like she holds my balls still when I look at her , like she knows what I was . Ugh , its hard to articulate what I want in text ..anyone understand ?