I’m fascinated by this group.

I grew up a blue-piller and work in a blue-pilled industry (culture, not finance.) I’m also in my mid-40s, short, small and ethnic, so it’s been easier to swallow the blue pill. Blue pill makes it easier to believe things like NAWALT, so then I have a cope that I have better chances than I do.

On the other hand, I’ve had a couple of girlfriends, and I’ve seen the red pill in action. I also keep in good shape, and have a decent nest egg, so that’s helped expose me to the red pill. Finally, I’ve been with over 100 whores — that’s a ton of red pill.

But a lot of you guys here talk so self-assuredly about sexual strategy like spinning plates, etc. If only I had the luxury of sexual desirability to do that.

If I got too red pilled, I might as well write myself out of existence. No one will care about my “abundance mentality” … no one will care in the first place.

Instead I have to play a slightly red-pilled blue pill approach.

Anyone else feel this way? If everyone’s telling the truth, y’all are super-manly studs who are just juggling female attention, expertly getting the vipers to dance for you without getting bitten.

But I’m sure that’s not the case. And if it is the case that everyone has got multiple plates spinning, what can I get out of being here?