I've been trying to get my shit together since i got a job. No masturbation, meditate 2× a day, bicycle from and to work. Daily dose of sidebar, watching news reading articles to stay informed so anyways to what i came here to brag about.

I've been implementing trp tactics at work. ( yes i know i can almost hear you fucks typing " DoNT ShIEt WeR U EaT REeEeEEE!!! " ) I honestly I do not give a fuck. Its a fast food joint anyways.

And all about teasing, tone, pitch, and voice, body language etc. Has really made a game changer i'ts a complete 180.

From teasing a milf about having to pay 14 cents extra for the straws she's taking and telling her hot daughter to leave before the bomb explodes ( drive through window beeper ) with just the right smirk and eye contact, and boom the mom is checking me out, and the daughter nervously giggling. To teasing the customer who chose her words poorly to " keep the change, or put it somewhere " as I say " are you trying to be rude to me? " " hehe no just keep it as tip " to " thanks for the nickel i'll be sure to not spend it in one place" while she's talking on the phone with her bf, and it's not even what you say it's how you say it and once in a while hitting the comedy jackpot.

To making my bitch, bossy coworker giggle and soften up by teasing her about her hygiene and "proud" work ethic. To getting rides from this little cute cupcake home while I kino and play around with her, and honestly their not as bad as I used to think they dont owe you attention just cause you exist.

Once you respect yourself and learn some sort of game everything gets better I even think trp has cured my self diagnosed autism which was just an excuse to mask my low self love and lack of social acumen. You just have to put yourself first.

And this is a gamechanger because even though i'm " easy on the eyes " being playful gets some sort of gears in their heads churning you can just see that look they give it's hard to describe i guess it's some sort of slight adoration or i give them the hotsies.

I'm not liking where this post is going because i've never been the boastfull type, shit i've never been the confident type. I'm usually the depressed, timid, "school shooter" quiet, but now the world seems conquerable with the right mindset.

Like if the power of masculinity is a gift to us because no matter the external, the light in us has the power to manifest your desires, to move mountains, and part clouds, giving heed to dreams, and desires repressed by our own fears, and for once in my own subjective ungrateful view of life i'm actually happy to be alive, to feel, to know theres an opposite of what i thought life would play out for me, and for that i'm eternally grateful.