I apologize if this might sound retarded but bare with me here. I have a hard time enjoying things. I don't have an actual hobby. Even when I go out with friends I feel this kind of dread inside of me that prevents me from having a good time. Idk if this is correct but I might be depressed. Because of this people sometimes distance themselves from me. I don't have any majir problems in my life except finanacial ones but I still feel stressed about it. (The next part becomes even weirder) I sometimes feel jealous of girls. No matter how ugly they are they seem to be having a good time and pulling dudes they like. Meanwhile I have to do a lot of work to be considered a high quality man to be able to get laid. Don't get me wrong, I don't blame women if I don't get laid. But I am jealous though at how they can live life on easy mode and have people go after them. I lack emotional contact with people. I don't have somebody to talk about how I feel (maybe im being a big baby), but I just want to say what I feel and have somebody understand me. I don't see the purpose of anything and because of my financial situation I feel trapped. This turned into a rant but my question is how do I stop worrying and just have fun for once. I am 24 and don't want to keep spending my years worrying and feeling down. I have wasted a lot of my time already. Any advice is welcome. Also is there any book I can read in relation to this?