For starters, I’m pretty new to trp. Glanced over it a few times but never really felt the need to post. I’m 22, M, 5’8 170, and currently in the military. I’ve been lifting for years and maintain and pretty good physique/strength. Getting attention from women has never really been an issue for me, my body count is very high (not that it matters) I’ve fucked a handful of 9s or 10s but never wanted to pursue anything more with them because of how picky I am when it comes to relationship. Most of my body count hovers around the 6-8 range.

This is my problem right now. I’m active duty stationed in Maryland, and I promise you I’m not exaggerating when I say there’s maybe 20 attractive women I’ve seen in my area. Tinder is a fucking joke there, and the closest area where I can find someone worth approaching typically is Washington DC, 2 hours away.

When I first got to Maryland I got into a long distance relationship with a girl I met in Florida. I flew her out a few times, we both thought we were in love, to the point we both saved money to actually get a place together in Maryland. To make a long story short, shit didn’t work out With her and I suffered oneitis severely for months.

As I went through that, I contacted my ex. We were together for a long time and she was my best friend. She’s a solid 8, fake tits which look amazing, and overall someone I considered to be the love of my life (as stated earlier, I’ve met several women who are 9s or 10s who I had sexual interactions with but never felt anything more) something about this girl was different. I told her I wanted her back in my life not to date, however over time, due to our natural pull to want to be with each other, if we got back together I wouldn’t be obliged to it.

Fast forward, I flew her to Maryland and she stayed with me. She grew impatient because she wanted to be with me now and I told her it was unfair and to give me time. We still said I love you to each other and facetimed often and made plans to see each other. I saw her last week in Georgia , and again in Florida (I’m on leave) we went on a couple dates and something switched in me. I wanted to be with her again and it felt like the old times

Yesterday my heart was basically shattered when I found out, she fucked my old best friend who I had cut off a while ago. Initially she told me they only fucked once or twice in March. But he himself told me she was lying , they had been fucking from March, up until last month. They fucked 9 days after her visit to me in Maryland.

I’m pretty much in a mental state now, where I don’t know if I’ll ever find a woman to date. Yes I know I’m young. I’ve been home in Orlando and fucked 4 other women in a span of 6 days, however it gets old. Hooking up and going home gets old. I’m in a place where I want to find love again, and I thought both women were it. The first girl fucked me up, but this one really did it. As soon as I was starting to recover this shit just took a piece outta me.

Last night, hours after finding out, I went to a girls house, she’s a solid 7, and drank a couple bottles of wine with her, and we fucked. It was good sex and I was turned on but something in the back of my mind was just fucking with me. My dick couldn’t stay hard and I just couldn’t do it. I told her I’m sorry it’s been a really long day, and we fell asleep. I leave for Maryland tonight. Anxious about everything as you can imagine.

I’m sorry if this was poorly written. I don’t really use Reddit at all. But I’m too embarrassed to talk to this with anyone close to me in my life.