I'm 18 and I just graduated HS about a month ago.

I have been addicted to porn and video games since I was in 5th grade. I quit playing video games around a year ago and I am currently doing nofap, so I am on the right track now.

However, the damage has already been done. My brain has been used to quick dopamine surges for so long that I simply do not get any satisfaction or enjoyment out of accomplishing a task. My energy levels are abysmal and it takes me 3 hours just to get out of bed every morning.

I am very good at researching and planning out goals I want to accomplish. For example, I am currently underweight and my goal is to gain muscle and be an attractive weight. I know how many calories I need to eat, how much protein I need, which beginner lifting routine I would follow, how much sleep I should be getting.

I barely have any energy to drive myself to the store, let alone buy all the food, cook it, force feed myself AND lift hard in the gym. Today I was told myself I was gonna start eating more food, yet it's already 4pm and I havent eaten a single calorie yet.