Ok so I remembered how red pill I was when I was the shit in 5th -7th grade before puberty hit me and made me more of an introvert or beta as fuck. Anyway I had a class leader position and I was a good student & popular. Friends, and lots of girls were in my social circle. I ended up getting my first gf in 5th grade, the most popular chick among the guys. I remember how one other girl asked me out also knowing I was taken and how I had to talk to her and be real to her about it and she understood and still loved me for it. And all less good looking girls were into me as well, that was a no-brainer. I knew exactly what my SMV was because I was popular as fuck. Confidence was crazy. Now going through reading RP; I remember my old young self. I realize how through adolescence I became more beta, especially since I had bad acne I was really self conscious and shy. No gfs for some time and I forgot how women were and i started to be blue pill through and through. I forgot. I forgot that sexual dynamics don't change. I maybe thought women were not girls anymore once they grow up- that they would be mature and considerate and like guys who are nice and considerate- boy I was wrong. The older they get the worse it gets. They do like a considerate guy but an alpha one. The hypergamy stays, the shit Tests stay, the cheating and lying only get worse. The disrespecting gets worse. Girls stay girls, sexual dynamics are primal instincts, they're beyond our control- women will always love a leader. And share him if they need to. Just be alpha. Work on yourself- the women will come automatically.