Hey everyone, been doing a lot of reading up on TRP and doing my best to change my lifestyle and habits to the best of my ability. With this has brought on me going out and spending a lot more time with friends, as when I was in a 4 year cuck relationship I wasn't doing much of it. age 22 if it matters.

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anyway, to make the story as short as possible.. three weeks ago, a good friend of mine invited me down to his house for a pregame and then bars afterwards. One of his girl friends, Jenna, was there. We ended up playing some drinking games together and she definitely seemed into me. we ended up going out to the bars and talking a bunch, and since we were both hammered, went back to our friends house. We watched a movie and fell asleep together, no sex but we did do some kissing and stuff like that. Anyways, afterwards, I texted her saying I had a great time and that I'd like to see her again soon, to which she replied "it was nice meeting you too, i'm sure ill see you around". it seemed like a bit of a cold reply and since she is my friends friend I didn't want to push anything and make it weird since we are all in the same friend group.

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fast forward to yesterday.. they all go to the same school and were up at a tailgate. they pregamed at her house then went out. my friends starting calling me and texting me, telling me that Jenna was asking about me repeatedly... she ended up inviting me out to the bars for the night. I came up to her place later on and then we went out. We both drank a good amount again and she asked me to come back to her place with her and some other friends, I obliged. We go to bed in her room pretty fast and she gets on top of me right away. However, I had realized at that point I was way too fucking drunk and was not going to get hard.. Also, I have pretty bad anxiety, which didn't help. She seemed disappointed but was persistent to try and make it work, and I told her a few times it wasn't gonna happen.. I offered to eat her out and finger her until she came and she said it was ok. We ended up cuddling/talking for about 2 hours after that and she assured me it was ok, but in the morning she seemed like she wanted me to leave since she had a busy day so I didn't think anything of it.

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so, i'm trying to figure out if it's worth it to text this girl, or just see what happens. I honestly really like her, see her as relationship material.. We have a lot of common interests and laugh a lot. but given that it's my friends friend, and I feel like I made a full of my self, I just can't figure out if she'd still want to hear from me or not.. I'll be seeing her next weekend for a bar crawl so im not sure if i should text her at all beforehand or try to make small talk, or just wait to see her in person.. I don't want her to think I'm not interested, but I also don't want to look thirsty by any means if she is not interested in shit, any advice? also, any advice on overcoming performance anxiety would be good too.. feels bad man.

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sorry for the fucking wall, i suck.