I’ll keep this brief as it is a little hard to concentrate right now having withdrawals: Had severe depression/anxiety for about 7 years. Psychiatrists put me on medications which to be honest I never actually knew if they were helping me or not. Stumbled across the red pill, stopped feeling sorry for myself which helped me more than any pills ever did. Got angry at the people supposedly “helping me” (at the end of the day though it was my own damn fault), decided to stop taking meds. Aside from the withdrawal symptoms I’m going through, I’ve never been better. At the end of the day what I needed was a kick in the ass.

After going through the whole psychiatry ordeal, it’s amazing to me how infected modern psychology is with the whole victim mentality. “It’s not your fault you’re like this,” “Oh poor you,” “Your brain chemistry is off,” blah, blah, blah. I bought into all of that crap which was keeping me depressed for so long. I’ve unplugged. Come to think of it, if you were to actually get better on your own, they would be out of a paycheck, so maybe it does make sense. \t A few simple rules I now live by and the take away:

1.\tNever feel sorry for yourself ever again. 2.\tYou have so much more control over your mind then people would have you believe (which is funny because women claim they have no control as a poor excuse for their behavior). 3.\tStop giving a damn what people think of you, especially women. 4.\tSuffering makes you stronger, love it. Overcoming suffering is the biggest high I get now.

I’ve still got a long way to go, but I’m making progress in life faster than I ever have before. I'm now in the process of approaching people, men and women, working on conversational skills, something I never would have imagined myself doing a year ago.