I'm not much of a writer but I tried to make it as enjoyable as possible.

I just got blocked, deleted and rejected in the most efficient way a this girl could work out at the moment.

And you know what?

I deserved it and.. I'm angry.

I'll try and make it short because the lesson is what this post is about.

I met A. Solid 8, a lot of attraction, tension, basically an easy lay. But my dumb ass blue pulled up. I got defensive, then soft, then "tried to work things out" all in a couple of hours. So inevitably I weirded her out and lost the girl.

Now the reason I'm pissed off is because I have girls. 2 solid plates, one has been spinning for months the other is new, but knows what the program is about, and another 2 girls that are getting cooked up and ready to spin.

But A was the hottest one, she was "the prize" of all my hard work! The one that I was willing go serious with if things "worked out". That was my frame of mind, it sounds BP but just a couple of hours ago it felt right. And that's why I'm angry, I'm angry at myself for not being able to see this. I truly believe things would of played out differently otherwise.

Here I come every once in a while to check out what's new, help out in asktrp, or simply judge and laugh at the BP guys out here trying to figure shit out, all while my balls are owned by a girl that was thinking "should I, should I not...". Discussting.

So how are we RP men going to overcome this tendency of going blue even if we have years in the RP game. (If youve never gone blue for thots, then congrats. I envy you.)

Yes I've been here since 2012. Back when posts form GLO, illitable men, roosh, and Rollo were just essays to build a brand and/or food for thought... not you GLO you were always bae<3. I think I would consider myself a veteran and yet I can't completely kill the beta in me.

I started as a lost boy that was heart broken, to a depressed sociopath to an empty shell of an alpha. And I'm yet to fill up the void.

I still have a long way to go career wise, knowledge wise, physical body & image , but I'm easily 10x a better man now then when I was 19. I could say I'm proud of myself and my accomplishments so far.

So what's the lesson MAAAAN

I wish I could solve it and tell you. The magic pill that kills the BP in us that is so deeply programed when a cute price of ass gives us time of day. Only $3.99 and ships world wide! The thing is, maybe we can't kill it (the BP tendencies) because we need it to survive in this messed up social cocktail of

"#meetoo" "#respactdewoomenz", and "#gunsmakemefeelbadsotheyshouldtakethemawaybecausemyfefeshurtiftheydont".

We have to keep our mouth shut or they take away what we cherish the most. Maybe that's why we can't truly become an alpha male (in modern terms of society). I don't know.. enough ranting.

Now if you excuse me I have to go to Amazon and buy the rational male book that's been sitting in my wish list for so long. Not because I didn't want it but because I been waiting for the hard cover! WHEN ARE YOU REALISING A HARD COVER ROLLO, you mother f*cker. I love you.

TLDR: it's more of a rant, but hot mama had my balls all up in a bunch and I though I was RP alfaboi.

.#alfaboi