I'm 5'6. 150 lbs, I have a neck problem that keeps from lifting weights. Face is just average looking. I have good hygiene (practically a clean freak) so it's not that.

I'm sexually frustrated as hell.

I don't want a relationship. I don't want love because I don't believe in it anymore. I've always been undesirable to woman. What I want is sexual desirability.

I just want to be sexually desirable. I'm considering doing anaboic steroids so I can at least look fuckable.

I'm ethical enough to know that I'm an unethical guy and that marriage is not for me.

I hate marriage and the idea that women are just settling for me and picking me last because they want someones commitment after years of chasing other guys makes me want to vomit. No women desires a guy like me, we are only useful for them to put under their thumb

Are there any unattractive guys like me who feel this way?

How the hell do you deal with this frustration?

If you're only going to reply with "incel", go do it somewhere else. I'm just looking for some help.