I’m writing this through a alias so don’t even think you can track me even if you wanted to at this point. I should start out this post collection with a background of who I am and what I have became through Red Pill Indoctrination. I grew up in a middle class neighborhood but I attended a regional high school so my friends weren’t proximal. Throughout high school I was seen as that weird kid but one who still managed to make friends , the weird ones of course. After 4 years of torment through bullying which seems like a cake walk now compared to the shit show I have become a part of, I lost my group of friends from high school and I was alone with my depression and anxiety from past childhood “traumas” ( more like miracles at the rate of my life’s direction) . I discovered the red pill through PUAs . I’m not going to name them but many MGTOWs become MGTOWs through PUAs. Enter MGTOW from September 2017 to May 2017 . Life was ok but I felt the need to constantly up my status although the red pill is about seeing that society isn’t just. In May I cut the cord from those freaks on YouTube seeing how insane my life had gotten within that time frame. I fapped constantly , eat unhealthily , and marginally escaped my semester at university in some of my classes.

Enter May to November 2nd.

My summer was incredible , never had I been so happy since I made future plans for myself to become an successful artist and athletic alongside doing other niches . I had everything in shape until November of this year. The downward spiral toward these demons began when I ended up getting snubbed by a girl who in my head was an easy catch. The logistics , looking back were impossible but my ego's a major interference. It was a Wednesday night and I remember searching for dating advice with girls and wat do you know pops up in my youtube archive suggestion : MGTOW. I decided to give it go since I had been dumped a couple days prior. EDIT: I have never had a girlfriend so my attachment problems to her were inevitable. I watched a couple clips and then some more. The more I watched the more egotistical and OCD like I became.

The next day was when the gates of my own hell opened just a crack. I was sitting in my university lecture until it was time to leave and I had to ask my super intelligent but narcissistic and Napoleon driven professor a question about my grade. " Sir , what was grade on the final exam" I exclaimed politely as I always do. He replied in a snark tone " I don't revise grades ___ my name___ you should know it from your last exam". I replied " C- I guess hmm. " He nodded and I exited that room to enter the world of MGTOW and the Red Pill in a empty classroom buildings away. Why? Well I usually enter this building for tutoring but today I had to hear my MGTOW fellows preach their gospel. I sat down in this classroom and was about to plug in my laptop when I was stricken with the compulsion to put my tongue on my laptop charger. I don't know why I did but I did. I leaped from chair with the adrenaline pumping throughout my veins. " Godammit" I yelled . " Those morons made me do this!" I still think back to that day and wonder if I had only been in the tutoring classroom , how amazing my life would have been. Or would be. Stay tuned my friends . The rabbithole is deep as you want it to go.

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TO BE CONTINUED.

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