Finally asked oneitis out after stupidly orbiting around her and being beta for the past 3 months.

After she turned me down (even though she gave multiple hints beforehand) ive realised how much orbiting I have done has completely turned her off, which was really embarrasing.

But now I can move on and finally start doing things I like and spinning other plates.

How do I stop being embarrased about my past blue pill behaviour?