I have been browsing this sub for a good while now, reading as much as I can and taking the lessons I feel apply to me, and filtering out those that don't. I am not 100% steadfast on every single theory and opinion out there, but a large amount of the self help teachings have applied to me..

I will spare a wall of text, but the short of it is: I was alpha as fuck in my teens, and into my mid-20's. Seemingly overnight I became a social shut in and developed incredibly un-manageable anxiety.. I don't know why it manifested in my first quarter century of life, I had inklings of anxiety as a child but it never shaped how I lived my life..

I am not going to go on a rant about how bad it was, but it made 24-31 a total train wreck emotionally.. That's all I will go into it because my point is not to bitch and sob, but to say that due to pushing myself through a major paradigm shift I have become the man my wife did not know she wanted. I have become respected by my superiors at work. I feel as if I am a better father to my children now that I have thrown off the limits of feeling beta. I have a ways to go. I know that. I have never posted here so I apologize if I am not following the exact syntax of the formatting.. But thanks.