https://archive.is/5Bj8j

I feel for the OP's loss, but it's also pretty offensive in that she makes it all about her.

The third graf is just hilariously self-centered, more about comparing herself to a rival than anything else. It's almost a parody, this egocentricity accounts for half of the scribe.

There's nothing about "oh, why didn't I see the pain you were in?" It's all, "Me, me, me."