Hey. I really don't know how to say this or how to tell the one's I care about but, I can't sleep. I suffer from Fatal Familial Insomnia. On Monday I went to my counselor and they told me that I've never suffered from Atisom, all I've ever suffered from was being tired all the damn time. Last night I downed a 4 sleeping pill and woke up after a nice 13 hours of sweet sweet sleep. I'm loosing my ability to love and my sex drive is gone, I'm drink RedBulls and Monsters to make sure I can make it though work. I love my boyfriend and my family but I'm getting to a point where I'm just going to leave and find a nice place to lay down and sleep for one last time. I want to sleep with happiness knowing my boyfriend will be happy but that's just a lie I'll never make true. I want my final wish to be my boyfriend being happy knowing that I went out in peace. I now it's happening very slowly to me and I may get a few months to a couple of year before it takes full affect. I hope I could make my final hours worth making him and I happy before dying in the hands that showed me how to love.
